Revise my Plan

My name is Jense.
I may have to revise my plan a lil bit. Just a lil.
Or a lot. Gosh. This changes everything. I never thought this would happen.
But with each passing day, I become more and more sure of it. Which scares me a little.
Actually, it scares me a lot. A lot a lot. Oh man.
I guess I should have seen it coming. I've had so many hints. For like, a year now. But I still don't want to accept it. It's impossible. Very much impossible. Other girls do this. Other girls get this feeling. I'm not suppose to! I'm not suppose to get this feeling! I'm not suppose to do this!
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Breathe. In. Out. In. Out.
Ok. All right. It's gonna be ok.
I've got a while.
I can make a new plan.